Trials, Trials, Trials, Blessings, Blessings, Blessings

Well it has been along time since I have posted. A lot has happened in our lives in the past 2 weeks so I thought I would share. I know Heavenly Father is watching out for us but at the same time he has thrown some hurdles in our way. Last Friday Kiersten had an ATV accident and was life flighted to primary children's hospital. She has 2 broken wrists, a broken elbow, stitches in her nose and a bruised lung. She is doing well at home now and in the end it turned out to not be as serious and we thought. Unfortunately she has cast on both arms so I have to help her do everything. It is going to be a long 2 months but we are so so thankful that she was not hurt worse. The gas throttle got stuck on the 4-wheeler and she was going over 30 miles per hour when she hit a hill and jumped across a road about 10 feet and down a hill. She was wearing a helmet so she escaped with no permanent damage. With 2 broken arms she managed to get up and walk half way down our long driveway before she laid down. I am so thankful that Heavenly father was watching out for her that day. I do not know what I would do with out her. It has truly been a great blessing in our lives to still have her with us. She is such a sweet girl. On the way to the hospital she said "Mom, am I a good person" I said, "of course you are." She then said, "am I going to die." She really thought she was going to die and was worried that she wasn't good enough. She definatly is good enough. She has such a strong testimony of the gospel and I have no doubt that she would go to the celestial kingdom. We love her so much and are so thankful for her.

Our next trial happened a week and a day before Kiersten's accident. I was 33 weeks pregnant and had some really bad pain. I thought they were contractions so I waited about 40 minutes and realized I should go to the hospital. I didn't think it was serious so I told Ben to wait to come. He was about 1/2 hr away in Vernal. As soon as I got to the hospital I was really dizzy and felt like I was going to pass out. They took me back and put me on the monitors but they were having trouble finding a heart beat. For some reason I wasn't worried yet because I had felt him move that morning. They tried and tried to find one but couldn't. They called ultra sound and they came. Ben still wasn't there yet but was on his way. JoAnn my sister in law was with me. Which I am so thankful for. Unfortunately they found out that I had a placenta abruption and the baby was dead. Basically the placenta tore away from the uterus. They said that as soon as I felt the pain the baby was dead within 4 minutes so there was no way I could have saved him. I am not sure why this had to happen but it was very hard. Unfortunately I still had to go through delivery. It was really hard but I made it though thanks to Ben's blessing and some family members there with me. After the delivery it was scary because they couldn't get me to stop bleeding. They were on the verge of life flighting me to Salt Lake. At one point I passed out and stopped breathing. Ben said it was the scariest thing in his whole life. I am so glad Heavenly Father was watching out for me. We named our baby son Kade Howard Allred. He was Born June 4th 2009 at 1:58 PM and weighed 5 lbs 1 oz and was 18 1/2 inches long. He was so cute and precious. I definatly wish he was here with us. It was wonderful to get to hold him for a while. I am so thankful for the gospel and the knowledge that he is up in heaven. It gives me peace that he got his body and now he has moved on and will go to the celestial kingdom. I look forward to the day when we will have a great reunion up in heaven. It has truly brought me peace to know all of that. I am so thankful to all of the family and friends that have helped us out through these trying weeks. I don't know what we would have done with out you. Unfortunately with the blood loss I had, the eye doctor thinks I had a mini stroke in one eye and I have been having trouble seeing good. Hopefully it will improve but the doctor says at this point he can't do anything. I know it is a blessing that I am still alive so I will have to deal with the eye problem one day at a time. Well that is it in a nut shell. I am sorry it is such a long post. I just wanted to share our experience with you. I love you all and appreciate all of your prayers and help in our behalf. We really do feel we have been blessed and I know Heavenly Father will help us get through all of this.

Our family at the grave site

Our family at the mortuary

Baby Kade in his little casket

Kade in the hospital

Our sweet angel!